left my heart in new york city

five days have passed since i got back from the big apple and i still continue to be elated from that highlight of an experience-- dinner reservations at the sea grill mailed on the day i flew to new york, reached nikki by surprise thinking how it meshed in like a spam email but to her surprise twas me on the invite,got snowed in in minneapolis St. Paul that led me to miss my flight to JFK which actually led me to la guardia international and for that my luggage got delayed for two days--but the best part of it all was seeing nikki for the very first time in 8 years, she looked exactly like she did the last time i've seen her and amidst the jungle that is the city of new york, she was the lady that stood out and took my breath away completely. surprising her was done with deliberate intention at such short notice and i guess it was a welcome surprise. twas 8 years in the making and i'm back to where i should have been in the first place... it has always been nikki all along.

getting ready for a big bite at the big apple

it's only a few days away, before i embark on a reckless, unplanned and totally spontaneous visit to New York City only because of nikki. and i like it. i am totally ecstatic over this forthcoming experience. almost ten years have gone since i last held my eyes fixated on her and i am about to bring back the lost moments in time in a complete three sixty degree turn...and there's nothing more exciting than surprising the only person that could have been the most significant person then in my life...and i think she still remains to be that person after all these years.

of course, i'm expecting the worst but the endless river of hope never runs out...

karma police

it was over before it could have started. that's how i see things manifested itself in the past couple of days. it was a whirlwind of events and culminating in an adrenalin induced parting shot that practically sealed the deal or should i say, tore the tie that bound whatever vestige of friendship that has ever existed between us.i guess this is how i get a lesson from past deeds where i usually end up breaking people's hearts. for the first time in my life, i was dealt such a blow and only then i realized how much i fell for her. it was karma police frantically knocking at my door and serving a warrant for my arrest. justice served indeed and now i am serving my sentence.

christmas wish list

Dear Santa: i know i've been more than naughty than nice but still, i insist on having these wishes granted. i know it's a bit too much but am sure i am certainly entitled to it. weird as it sounds, these wish list don't come around christmas 07 but it actually sounds more like a new year's resolution/or a set of goals. either way just because christmas is next day, it just feels right to put up a " christmas wish list" no matter how absurd it may sound.
1.pass the california february 2008 bar
2.maintain my unblemished US driving record at ZERO tickets for the rest of the year
3.annihilate the MPRE friggin exam
4.do something different for my birthday
5.finish reading "on the road" and "a hundred years of solitude"
6.to relish my last year being a "tweenie"
7.do more than just dropping hints tsk tsk tsk....
8.plan a weekend for the coachella festival
9.to just be reckless one day and drive off 101 south straight to Los Angeles
10.and just let the good times roll....

gibberish

woke up early today to find the motivation to study but my lazy ass genes got the better of me...again... this is turning out to be a struggle to say the least. i've again been sucked into imagining things that could only ever happen in a parallel universe living out my life that was once were and lazily daydreaming about it. i've always had this knack for taking my own sweet time, thinking that the world is waiting for me. i don't think my attitude will change. i am built this way, and therefore i know that i am doing the right thing.

so going back to my preparations for next february's california bar, i will set the revised plan for another day-- tomorrow would be good.

now it's just a few minutes away before i get ready for the daily grind of things--work, work, work....life really get's the better of me in this work-a-day world.

downhill from red rock

yes there was this friend i had to see perform at downtown mountain view and it was a blast. a coffee shop jam session really punctuated the night sky and it was a perfect blend of music and company in an otherwise cold november night. of course, a little bit of corona buzz from molly mcgees to where we first headed out to before finding the rallypoint for the rendezvous tweeked us a bit nicely for the evening's performance. well, nothing much happened ever since, the daily trek to borders for the effervescent cup of brewed americano and a bunch of readings were the daily staple for the most part of the week.... what else...hmmm..... just work, the daily grind, oh yeah, and a midweek meeting which requires me to go online for my benefits but which my own password literally fails me to access my very own account.geez...talk about being helpless and inadequate...too many things to complain about really but am not the type who'd blabber in a stressful manner. il just let the natural course of things take its place. and by that i mean, just letting it roll....

uphill climb

now to be on the top means being right where you want to be. earlier today, i was literally on top of the City, up in the masonic center for the multi state Professional Responsibility exam. well, what can i say? not much except that a tiny bit of bar blues came rushing to mind but the relatively "small" turnout compared to the six thousand and a couple of hundreds more that came out during the Philippine Bar Exam of 2006 gave me the feeling that this first part in becoming a california lawyer has been given nondescript attention. not that i wished for camera's clicking, drums rolling,and all those cheers from peers, but it made me feel that truly, one needs no special attention to be called to this great lawyering profession. funny thing is, not even my folks knew that i was taking the Mpre today, until i called them 30 minutes before i headed to the exhibit hall for the registration and the test proper. i always wanted to be just a face in the crowd anyway. i didn't need the special attention to the fact that i am a foreign attorney, hoping to pass the first challenge that is the mpre before i take head on the california bar in february of 2008. truly an uphill climb.but i've been there and done that, and i don't think taking these challenges now in a different jurisdiction would change my game plan nor affect my preparation.
today was an uphill climb, but i still came out on top.

in five weeks time i'll say again that i was never wrong in my assumption, to which i say now, it is a foregone conclusion.