left my heart in new york city

finally found what i've been looking for all these years. it turns out that the very first person i truly fell in love with is the very same person i eagerly await to see everytime i visit new york. that is why leaving the city is such a difficult thing to do. everything turned out perfect last saturday, red sox and yankees baseball with nikki made the day worthwhile. the day before that spent with her at her apartment made it seem so surreal. i couldn't believe my eyes that i'm right beside the person i've always wanted to be with and yet i did the most stupidest thing before--that is, walking away and turning around--only to find myself yearning for her, missing her all these years and finally realizing what enormous mistake i made before. my only hope now is that i wish i didn't come to late in her life...for then if the heartaches of the past has never really healed, then i know for certain that i lost the only person i would truly love for the rest of my life.