4 days till the california bar results...

why i know that i passed:
1. i used a macbook as my laptop. typing is indeed faster than cursive. ideas flow faster and efficiency is achieved on a better rate
2. experience becomes a factor. learning from the february bar has made me do the essays a little bit more analytical and more expansive than mere generalizations of law. had expounded a lot more on the PTs too compared to the one i took last february.
3. i got the PTs right down to the detail more than i did in Feb
4. i got 4 essays down to Pat, with me guessing that i did better than the scores i got last feb. more issues were explored, more analysis were given, and more IRAC was involved. if indeed i got a low essay score, it will be on questions 5 and 6, real property and CP/ Wills problem respectively.however, the good scores i sense i got from the other four would somehow counter balance that or offset the difference.
5. i chose C when i was in doubt over the MBEs and ran out of time in the morning session with the last ten numbers...i don't exactly know if that is a reason enough to pass.
6. i was inspired by niks for this bar unlike in february when there was no one i could focus my energy to.
7. God wills it that i make it this time. i know i am already ready to be a california lawyer.

why i may have failed:
- did not have enough preparation for the MBE. i didn't practice as i should have.
- no practice at all for the PT. zilch
- my failure to master CP/ Wills...again....
- only three hours of study time was devoted per day.
- i was working Full time. not advisable.
-i was busy concentrating on more essential matters of life...can't blame me, life is more than just a set of bar exams.
- family visit, took valuable time off my reading schedule..
-was not totally devoted to studying the bar.
-there was neither essay practices nor MBE simulation.
- i guess i just relied on stock knowledge.

* if i indeed made it, it's the inner voice in me that said " use a laptop and buy a mac" and of course, God's grace and nikki as my sole inspiration. not to mention luck and a lot of stock knowledge. Let's see if it worked.

it's been written all along...

i've finally said what i fet all along....took the plunge and bared every honest piece of my soul to nikki. it was a saturday night, the 25th of october, and apparently this caught her by surprise. i just had to say it and it came rather much later in the night when i left her pad and called her back again to say a few things right right up in my mind. i guess that was all i needed to do to let her know that all the actions i took meant exactly what i needed her to understand. and she got the message loud and clear and with nothing lost in translation. it felt great and for the first time, i have bared my soul to someone i consider the most important person in my life. i have lost her before and yet this second chance at making it right almost seemed impossible to accomplish. and yet fate has made everything look perfectly simple... it's the magic of romance i guess, now i know for certain what love really is for the first time....and with more certainty now than ever before, i have truly come to find the very person i wanted to be with--without a doubt, it's nikki from New York...