Thursday, May 14, 2009

results known tomorrow

....and this time with certainty i will definitely say that i passed my California Bar. period. it is thursday . may 14. 12:37 noon...

things to do today: pack my bags for my NYC flight tomorrow. looking forward to the Dinner date at Pranna in NYC. and a night spent with Nikki waiting for the release of my CA bar results. nothing less than perfect than spending the most important day with the most important person in my life.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Monday, November 17, 2008

4 days till the california bar results...

why i know that i passed:
1. i used a macbook as my laptop. typing is indeed faster than cursive. ideas flow faster and efficiency is achieved on a better rate
2. experience becomes a factor. learning from the february bar has made me do the essays a little bit more analytical and more expansive than mere generalizations of law. had expounded a lot more on the PTs too compared to the one i took last february.
3. i got the PTs right down to the detail more than i did in Feb
4. i got 4 essays down to Pat, with me guessing that i did better than the scores i got last feb. more issues were explored, more analysis were given, and more IRAC was involved. if indeed i got a low essay score, it will be on questions 5 and 6, real property and CP/ Wills problem respectively.however, the good scores i sense i got from the other four would somehow counter balance that or offset the difference.
5. i chose C when i was in doubt over the MBEs and ran out of time in the morning session with the last ten numbers...i don't exactly know if that is a reason enough to pass.
6. i was inspired by niks for this bar unlike in february when there was no one i could focus my energy to.
7. God wills it that i make it this time. i know i am already ready to be a california lawyer.

why i may have failed:
- did not have enough preparation for the MBE. i didn't practice as i should have.
- no practice at all for the PT. zilch
- my failure to master CP/ Wills...again....
- only three hours of study time was devoted per day.
- i was working Full time. not advisable.
-i was busy concentrating on more essential matters of life...can't blame me, life is more than just a set of bar exams.
- family visit, took valuable time off my reading schedule..
-was not totally devoted to studying the bar.
-there was neither essay practices nor MBE simulation.
- i guess i just relied on stock knowledge.

* if i indeed made it, it's the inner voice in me that said " use a laptop and buy a mac" and of course, God's grace and nikki as my sole inspiration. not to mention luck and a lot of stock knowledge. Let's see if it worked.

it's been written all along...

i've finally said what i fet all along....took the plunge and bared every honest piece of my soul to nikki. it was a saturday night, the 25th of october, and apparently this caught her by surprise. i just had to say it and it came rather much later in the night when i left her pad and called her back again to say a few things right right up in my mind. i guess that was all i needed to do to let her know that all the actions i took meant exactly what i needed her to understand. and she got the message loud and clear and with nothing lost in translation. it felt great and for the first time, i have bared my soul to someone i consider the most important person in my life. i have lost her before and yet this second chance at making it right almost seemed impossible to accomplish. and yet fate has made everything look perfectly simple... it's the magic of romance i guess, now i know for certain what love really is for the first time....and with more certainty now than ever before, i have truly come to find the very person i wanted to be with--without a doubt, it's nikki from New York...

Monday, August 18, 2008

mid year in review

first of all, there has been so many experiences that made this year so important in my life. i have realized lately that my feeling of a certain "redemption" was founded on pure instinct and yet by a calculated investigatory accident, then by a stroke of pure cognition, it turned out to be true. she didn't really feel as if this was the life she chose. enough said. i don't even revel at this discovery or celebrate in the light of her depression. the past is truly past. now i realized that indeed things follow a natural and purposeful flow. i didn't choose to hurt anybody, although i must admit that i was consciously doing it knowing fully well that it will eventually have hurt her feelings if she indeed found out. when she did, few years ago, i could not truly say my world collapsed but the pain was there. but priorities had to be set and set they were. the situation as i look back now all seemed like a market economy on a worldwide scale. there was an upturn, a slump and a recession but never did it come to the point of a depression. that thing that occurred few years back was a self correcting mechanism to correct the flaws in the market. that's how things turn out differently at present. true indeed that the goal of finding peace and happiness never stops but i can truly tell that i am more than halfway there. finding myself back to where i once started my journey of finding who i truly wanted to be with brought me back to where i started. i feel as if i am reconnecting my life back to her and hoping that by revealing myself once again would not seem a bit too late to start it over again. the year 2008 has been a good year, even considering the feb calif bar, much of the year has been a very good one for me. finding nikki, surprising her, visiting her, finding my passion for writing letters, opening up myself once again to the idea of finding love and surrendering myself to the emotion has made this year really worth noting.
the year's not yet over though, i have an october date, a november reckoning with the calif bar results, and probably a white christmas in the works in the streets of new york coming my way.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

left my heart in new york city

finally found what i've been looking for all these years. it turns out that the very first person i truly fell in love with is the very same person i eagerly await to see everytime i visit new york. that is why leaving the city is such a difficult thing to do. everything turned out perfect last saturday, red sox and yankees baseball with nikki made the day worthwhile. the day before that spent with her at her apartment made it seem so surreal. i couldn't believe my eyes that i'm right beside the person i've always wanted to be with and yet i did the most stupidest thing before--that is, walking away and turning around--only to find myself yearning for her, missing her all these years and finally realizing what enormous mistake i made before. my only hope now is that i wish i didn't come to late in her life...for then if the heartaches of the past has never really healed, then i know for certain that i lost the only person i would truly love for the rest of my life.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

96 percent on the mpre

earlier i talked about freakin annihilating the mpre exam, i guess the heading of this blog entry for this day pretty much shows that i meant what i said back then. enough said.